Yes, I am posting this three days late. I suppose I have been a bit lazy.
Frankly, I’m scared about the new year. I am disliking the swift disappearance of 2011. A lot happened to me in nine months, and it’s really really weird knowing that it’s been so long, and it’s a new year. And I was so happy last summer. And now that it’s 2012, I know I have to move on. I have to keep going. That scares me. It’s weird, and caught me by surprise. I was sitting on the floor at the New Year’s party I attended, all the scenes from the past year playing through my head. Depression, Spring Camp, saved and lifted, happy, going to public school, missing a lot of people, my happiness just generally dipping. Currently, I am not depressed, per say, but I do feel kind of down most of the time, which is probably just my pride acting up. I’m working on that (and I’ll do a post on that, too, soon).
But I have to move on, and not clutch my past so tightly. I shouldn’t be so afraid of the future and the passing of time. I am reading Fearless by Max Lucado, which is helping my terror. And also these verses:
Romans 8:38-39: “For I am persuaded that neither death nor life, nor angels nor principalities nor powers, nor things present nor things to come, nor height nor depth, nor any other created thing, shall be able to separate us from the love of God which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.”
That verse, especially “nor things present nor things to come,” reminds me that even if I dread the future and grip the past, God still loves me, and all His people, with a never-ending passion.
Which is also a reason why I shouldn’t dread the future and grip the past.
I shouldn’t be feeding those fears by dreading the arrival of 2012.
Besides, 2012 is already here. What good is it to dread it? Seriously.
I also recently listened to the song “Best is Yet to Come” by Red, for the second time. That song has become my motto song. That instead of thinking that the future could never be as good as what’s already happened, I should know that things can always get better, and they will, considering the fact that since I am a Christian, I will go to Heaven when I die.
But this song inspired me to tell myself that even if last summer was really wonderful, with God, I should strive to make my every moment better than my last.
And if I keep thinking that my happiness will never be so great as it was, it’s never gonna. Which is just a stupid way to live life.
So turn that frown upside down, take a risk, and make 2012 even better than 2011.
Thanks, Red, for this inspiration. And thanks, Max, for writing your beautifully eye-opening book.
You guys rock.
Here’s “Best is Yet to Come”: